So I
read a blog post from an amazing blogger about how her love for women all
started and how long it took for her to realize she was a lesbian. It took me
22 years to finally find my complete happiness and come out. When I was younger
I knew no other gay people and lived a somewhat sheltered life seeing how my
Father had two daughters and was in law enforcement. In high school was my
first experience with people that were gay and my first experience with a girl.
I was at my friends house and I was sleeping over because we had somewhere to
be in the morning and for some reason unknown to me she kissed me, I was in
shock and disbelief, but my deep down feelings are what surprised me the most I
wanted her to do it again. After that kiss I had no other experiences with
women through out high school. I went through high school telling myself that
it was nothing and me wanting her to do it again meant nothing at all, so I
continued to date men and live the straight life. After high school I started
college and college is a whole new world full of so many different people. In
college I was still thinking about that one kiss and I began to think maybe all
my thinking some women are attractive was not a straight thing, but once again
I lived the straight life. A year into college I was invited to go to my
friends birthday party in Big Bear and that is where I met my former fiancee.
Yes, I was engaged to a man. Him and I were together for 4 years of my life
which during that time he was in the military and stationed in a different
state. I cared for him but it became more of just a friend thing due to the
distance and my struggle with finding who I really was. Needless to say we
parted ways but are still very close friends and talk all the time. So, here I
was confused and not knowing who I really was until I met her. I was working at
a vet clinic but had put in my notice because I had to go to school all day for
a class I was taking. I told the vet that I could stay until the new person was
fully trained if he found someone soon that he wanted to hire. The next day he
told us that there were two interviews the first girl walked in and I we
were all in aww the girl asked us what number month June was, and then
proceeded to call her mom and say she didn't know how many years of high school
she completed but she graduated. Yay she didn't get hired. Th next interviewee
was much different she walked in the door and I looked at her and immediately
ran to the back to fix myself up the best I could, then thought to myself why
am I doing this? It made no sense to me as why I was so drawn to this women
after all I was straight right? I was about to find out how wrong I was because
she was hired. The next day I knew she would be there so I did my hair and put
on makeup (which I never did my hair or wore makeup to work) I hopes she would
notice me. That first day we all got to know each other she was a gorgeous
brown haired, blue eyed, confident in who she was, lesbian woman, and I just
couldn't stop smiling around her. Over the next few weeks I trained her and she
finally asked me to hang out with her and I of course said yes! I was so nervous
that night as I headed to her house, trying to figure why I was like this. That
night we kissed and my whole world changed I had never felt the way I did when
she kissed me. It was bliss, and I honestly had never been so happy in my life.
Finally, I felt like I belonged and she has become my world. Coming out to my
parents was one of the hardest things because all my life they had seen me date
men, and even saw me engaged to one. The day they said they didn't care as long
as I was happy I couldn't believe it. Kris has changed my life and made me the
happiest women alive and now with her by my side we are ready to start a family
together, we couldn't be happier!
